Toad’s Weekly Assessment #55

It weird, although I do identify as sliding into hypomania, I don’t feel as though I have a ton of energy exactly beyond not feeling sleepy at bedtime until the end of the week. Been binge watching Gotham with Dad but by the time Saturday rolled around irritation reared its ugly head and I told him I had to call it quits and go to bed early. Everything just ached. No idea if the letter had more to do with it than the lack of sleep or what, but I don’t care. I still need to finish up the portfolio and I feel like life is caving in on me where everything is happening next week. It’s too much. Continue reading

The Common Response to Anxiety that Only Makes It Worse — HealthyPlace

Oddly enough this was a trick I had learned while in college, not directly mind you, but while study Anatomy and Physiology and learning about the Central Nervous System I came to understand how panic attacks happen. I used to have the often – like to the point I would skip lectures for fear that I would have them in class. As luck would have it, I made it to the lecture that covered this topic. It took about a year I think, but every time one started I would repeat the lecture notes in my head, tell myself I wasn’t dying, and this was normal. Eventually, they stopped happening. (Too bad it doesn’t work for migraines!) I still have anxiety, but not anywhere near as bad as I did back then thanks to this and getting treatment for my migraines, Bipolar, and PTSD.

I do like how this article refers to it as “inviting anxiety to tea as though it was a person” and really we could apply this to any symptom or emotion we have. Just accept that it’s present and real first. Then decide how to manage with that presence. Like having a house guest – even if it’s a really smelly house guest and there is a terrible storm outside so you can’t kick them out…


Our mind’s response to anxiety affects our self-esteem, sense of control, and how we see the world around us. When we experience anxiety symptoms, our feelings and thoughts get so wound up in the body’s stress response that we may want to run. We want to shed this thing that won’t leave us alone. In…

via The Common Response to Anxiety that Only Makes It Worse — HealthyPlace

The Challenge of Perfectionism

So this morning I’ve been thinking about how I haven’t even started putting together that damn homeschool portfolio and wondering why that is. The med clinic was even kind enough to write a note for us to put in it about how we have been working together to get Scholar Owl stabilized and this may be a contributing factor in his work performance regarding getting assignments completed. Because really we have reached a do or die point here. He is out of time in making up the work. I can’t wait for him any longer. I have to get this portfolio together and get it sent out and just let the chips fall.

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